Now, I have no idea. Not because I don't love being a mom and don't love Jade but because there are times that I feel like an absolutely horrible mother and I worry constantly about how my decisions are going to effect (or is it affect? Heck, I don't care) her. I don't know if she's a crappy sleeper because of something I'm doing or because it's just who she is, but facts are facts: she's a crappy sleeper and I struggle daily over how to deal with that (ie, survive).
Chuck says that I read too much, and maybe he's right. But that's how I handle things, ya know? The books give me hope. But I'm tired, and I feel the depression creeping back in and with that comes worry and anxiety. So can I handle this 3 more times? I doubt it.